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|Saturday, May 5th, 2018|
Hey, I'm still alive. Haven't posted in more than 10 years, but still here and kick'n.
|Thursday, October 12th, 2006|
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probablyQuality Time
and Words of Affirmation
Complete set of results
|Quality Time: || ||9|
|Words of Affirmation: || ||9|
|Acts of Service: || ||6|
|Physical Touch: || ||6|
|Receiving Gifts: || ||0|
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz
|Monday, May 1st, 2006|
from Tickle: http://web.tickle.com/tests/idealsexpartner/authorize/signin.jsp?url=/tests/idealsexpartner/
Ayrmont, your ideal sexual partner is a Type 6.
A Type 6 partner is just naturally into sex and, more specifically, this person is interested in having sex with you exclusively. That means they're as dedicated to fulfilling their sex drive as they are to using sex as an expression of love. And as such, they are also good at exploring the emotional and physical outlets of pleasure. They can put the orgasm on hold in order to get creative with just as much expertise and interest
|Friday, March 17th, 2006|
Thought control is the highest form of prayer. Therefore , think only on good things, and righteous. Dwell not in negativity and darkness. And even in moments when things look bleak---especially in those moments---see only perfection, express only gratefulness, and then imaging ony what manifestation of perfection you choose next.
In this formula is found tranquility. In this process is found peace. In this awareness is found joy.
---- The words of God as revealed to Neale Donald Walsch in "Conversatios with God: an uncommon dialogue" book3, page 60.
|Friday, March 3rd, 2006|
Hmmmm... submission... what a surprise... not!Take the quiz:
What Is Your Kink?
You live to serve! You're most excited when someone else takes the reins and controls the situation. You're happy to do whatever will make your partner happy, even if it isn't your favorite thing to do. In the bedroom, you aim to please. Your motto is, Yes Sir/Ma'am!
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
|Thursday, February 2nd, 2006|
Well, it's 11:21pm and I am at work. I am now supposed to time shift my job so that it overlaps more conveniently with Bangalore, India. For those not in one of the "information age" fields, Bangalore, India is one of the main places that job have been leaving America for. Anything that can be done while sitting at a computer terminal is a candidate for outsourcing to Bangalore. We have been told that they can do the same job there for 25% of the salary we do it for here. This is supposed to be true even though most of my colleagues here have 20, 30, even 40 years experience and in India they are trying to replace us with fresh college grads. Of course, they can't do the job and so our dumb ass management tries to whip us here in America in the idiotic belief that it is possible to transfer 20, 30, or 40 years experience to someone with zero years experience just by having lots of "net meeting" converences at all odd fucking hours of the day.
20 years ago I signed on with Bell Labs with the promise of working for the premiere science and engineering research company in the world. Now this place is a huge piece of shit. I fucking hate this job!!!!!!!!!
|Wednesday, December 21st, 2005|
|I'm a nerd, AND, a geek, AND a dork? Yikes!
69 % Nerd, 26% Geek, 52% Dork
For The Record:
A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in Nerd and Dork, earning you the coveted title of: Tri-Lamb Material.
The classic, "80's" nerd, you are what most people think of when they think "nerd," largely due to 80's movies like Revenge of the Nerds and TV shows like Head of the Class. You're exceptionally bright and smart, and partly because of that have never quite fit in with your peers or social groups. Perhaps you're realized, or will someday, that it is possible to retain all of the things that you like about being brilliant and still make peace with the social cliques around you. Or maybe you won't--it's really not necessary. As the brothers of Lambda Lambda Lambda discovered, you're fine just the way you are and can take pride in that. I mean, who wants to be like Ogre, right!?
Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Love & Sexuality
Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST
My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
You scored higher than 71% on nerdiness
You scored higher than 33% on geekosity
You scored higher than 86% on dork points
If you liked my test, send it to your friends!
|Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005|
Oh, I'm so talkative today. That's because I am so relieved. Let me fill you in. My father died in June 2004. I am the executor to his estate. The beneficiaries are myself, my brother, and my step mother ---- can you guess who the problem is? I always knew my step mother was a bitch, but she's really gone over the top now. I guess she realizes this is her last chance to fuck up my life.
So, in the will there's stuff about money and stuff about things, mostly old books and files. I couldn't care less about the money, that's just money, but where else can I get a picture of my father holding me as a baby?
My step mother is all about the money, so I made sure she got her share as quickly as possible, which apparently wasn't fast enough for her. At the same time I kept saying that I needed to come pick up my dads things. She was less than cordial about this. All this talking had to go through lawyers since about the first thing she did after my dad died was to hire a lawyer (hmmm.... wonder why she did that!)
Now cut to a few weeks ago... she sues me! Superior court orders me to appear and give reason why the estate can't be closed. Well, that's easy, everyone has what's coming to them except me!
The court then orders me to go to her house, take inventory of the stuff mentioned in the will, and distribute it as per the will within 15 days. OK, sounds cool. My lawyer sends a letter to hers suggesting some dates.
The night before I am ready to come I call her. She is more nasty to me than I could have possibly imagined. I guess the relevant line she said was, "How old are you? Do you realize you are not getting in here to inventory anything?" Oh, boy, what a hassle this is.
So I go back to my laywer and this is what I have to do. Call her yet again (and take that abuse), then go to her house anyway, knock on the door and tell her that I have a court order and need to do what it says (take whatever shit she dishes out there), then walk out to the street and call the police with my cell phone. If they can get her to let me in, good; otherwise, get a report saying that I was there with a truck and a helper ready to fulfill the order of the court.
Now maybe that doesn't sound so bad to you, but I am really, REALLY, bad with personal confrontation. I can do some business confrontation, but when it gets personal I fall apart from the stress, even the stress of anticipation.
Well, I finally got some relief yesterday when my lawyer said he finally got a decent response from her lawyer. She is going to send me an inventory and I am scheduled to go get the stuff on December 3.
There will still be some hassle (of course her inventory won't have on it what it should, and when I get there the place will probably be cleaned out) but at least it's a lot less than what it was going to be, and I AM SO RELIEVED!!!, you have no idea how much...
|Friday, October 21st, 2005|
|The senility prayer
, a great goof on the serenity prayer:
THE SENILITY PRAYER:
Grant me the senility to forget the people I never liked anyway,
the good fortune to run into the ones I do,
and the eyesight to tell the difference.
|Thursday, October 20th, 2005|
I also found this today. Also very thought provoking:
"Hope is a lying bitch."
From the Anita Blake vampire hunter series by Laurel K. Hamilton.
I didn't read the book, but I am suposing that "Hope" is probably the name of a character, which would take the punch out of the meaning, unless one consideres the possibility of a Freudian slip or an unintended creation of wisdom. As Martha Graham said, if someone see something in a dance, then it is there, even if the choreographer and the dancer did not intend it to be there.
|Code of Bushido
I found this today. Very thought provoking.
The Code of Bushido
Gi-Honesty and Justice
Be acutely honest troughout your dealings with all people. Believe in justice, not from other people, but from yourself. To a true samurai there are no shades of gray in the question of honesty and justice. There is only right and wrong.
Rise up above the masses of people that are afraid to act. Hiding like a turtle in a shell is not living at all. A samurai must have heroic courage. It is absolutely risky. It is dangerous. It is living life completely, fully, wonderfully. Heroic courage is not blind. It is intelligent and strong. Replace fear with respect and caution.
Through intense training the smurai becomes quick and strong. He is not as other men. He develops a power that must be used for the good of all. He has compassion. He helps his fellow men at every opportunity. If an opportunity does not arise, he goes out of his way to find one.
Samurai have no reason to be cruel. They do not need to prove their strength. A samurai is courteous even to his enemies. Without this outward show of respect we are nothing more than animals. A samurai is not only respected for his strength in battle, but also by his dealings with other men. The true inner strength of a samurai becomes very apparent during times of stress.
The true samurai has only one judge of his honor, and that is himself. Decisions you make and how these decisions are carried out are a reflection of who truly are. You can not hid from yourself.
When a samurai has said he will perform an action, it is as good as done. Nothing on this earth will stop him from completing what he has said he will do. He does not have to "give his word." He does not have to "promise." The action of speaking alone has set the act of doing in motion. Speaking and doing are the same action.
Chugo-Duty and Loyalty
For the samurai, having done some "thing" or said some "thing", he knows that "thing." He is responsible for it and all the consequences that follow. A samurai is intensely loyal to those in his care. To those he is responsible for, he remains fiercely true.
A man's words are like his footprints; you can follow them wherever he goes.
Take care where you tread.
|Thursday, October 13th, 2005|
Took a quiz:( The real thingCollapse )
You're not into Hentai! You prefer the real thing!
Nothing makes you happier than to see flesh and
bone go at it! The realer it is the better
"off" you are! What's your HENTAI? (with pics) brought to you by Quizilla
Hmmmmm.... Not sure about this quiz, I love Hantai AND the real thing!
|Wednesday, September 7th, 2005|
|words of wisdom
You can do great things with a computer if you know how to use it, but if all you know is how to use it as a doorstop then you will judge the computer to be no more valuable than a rock!
This is an analogy to the evaluation that my management has for those of us here that are educated, experienced, and talented. They use us as doorstops and then judge us to be rocks.
|Monday, August 29th, 2005|
Read your yahoo email.
I got a big .wav file for you, 17MB zipped.
We've got to figure out a good way to get it to you.
|Thursday, June 23rd, 2005|
Well, it's another fine day here in Lucent Technologies, 10 more of my friends and colleagues are layed off so far today. All our jobs have gone to Bangalore. I feel a rock in the pit of my stomach... Today sucks.
But, I still have my entrepreneurial goal of starting up a company to compete with this mismanaged piece of stuff. (***motivation growing***)
|Thursday, May 19th, 2005|
I am beginning to think that I am 20 years older than anyone on LJ. Funny, I don't feel old. In fact, I'm just starting to feel young... you know, with all the nutraceuticals jump staring my brain and all. Hmm... I guess I just missed the train this time. Time to start planning my next life...
|Wednesday, April 20th, 2005|